Everything about me...
Hello! My name is Renske Klijn, I am twenty-two years old and from a little village near Amsterdam. I am starting this blog right now for… many reasons. Here’s a little lifestory:
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Ever since I can remember, I wanted to be an architect. I went to high school when I was twelve and I had always been good in the subjects that I needed to become an architect. I not only was good at those subjects, I loved them as well! When you are in high school in the Netherlands, in the fourth year you need to choose subjects that you want to follow in order to get in the right college of your choice. For me that meant that I needed to choose the subjects that I was already good at and loving! So, in high school everything was so easy for me and at the age of seventeen I passed high school and I was ready to become an architect in college.
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In September 2014 I started my classes at college and as enthusiastic and diligently as I was to make my dream come true, I started to realize after a while that I actually didn’t like the education at all. I was trying so hard to keep my grades up because I didn’t want to fail so I kept going. But, after a little bit longer (and a long time of true denail), I knew I couldn’t go true with it and I left school in March at the age of eightteen.
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I was devastated that period. I always knew exactly what I wanted in life and that was just taken away from me. I had only untill June to find a knew education, which was a very short time, but I didn’t know what I wanted anymore. I spent days scrolling the internet, making tests, talking to people to find the right education for me. There were so many options, which was only more confusing to me and I really thought there was nothing for me. At the end, I decided to chose a study in interiors. This was the only education that was the most similar to the aspects I thought I would like about being an architect. Truth is, I still wasn’t really sure.
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At that time, I still was in a really bad place emotionally from my experience in college. I was feeling insecure about myself in every possible way and besides the fact that I was emotionally not in the right place, my physical health was suffering from it as well. I was depressed and had developped an ‘IBS’ (Irritable Bowel Syndrome). For me that meant that I used to wake up in the middle of the night with the worst pain in my stomach and couldn’t sleep anymore. I was scarred all day long because I never knew when these kind of ‘attacks’ where going to happen to me.
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I was helped by a psychologist to help all the bad things turn into something positive, a physiotherapist to helped me with my panicattacks and my lovely boyfriend, who was always there for me.
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In September 2015 I started the education in interiors. Still, ensure about everything, waking up daily with my weird stomach aches, I was pushing myself to go to school to get myself some distraction. In that time I was slowly starting to feel a bit better. The education was really creative, which I liked, but it was too easy for me. I hoped this was only the beginning of the education and it was going to be harder the further I got. But this wasn’t true either. When I was starting to see the end of this eduaction, I was feeling a lot better health wise. For this I am really gratefull and I really feel that this education helped with it. Only emotionally I still wasn’t the best. I still was insecure about myself, I really didn’t had the nicest classmates and my teachers weren’t really supportive as well. Which made me feel uncomfortable the hole time in school.
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Last June I did pass this education but I still felt like I wasn’t my true self and I still felt like there was more inside me that didn’t found its way out there. I knew that I wasn’t done learning and I started searching for something that could fulfill my dreams after all. I really didn’t want to go to another college to go to school for four years, five days a week. So, I found this school called ‘Akademie Vogue’ where I could study the education fashionstyling for two days in a week. The idea only to go to an education in fashion was blowing my mind. I always loved fashion, but never considered working in fashion… but the more I started thinking about it, the more certain I was that this was the right decision me.
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So today I started my education in fashionstyling and we were told to start a blog. I am really exited to do this because it was always something that I really wanted to do someday anyways. I am going to post something about fashion every week from now on. I hope you are going to love it as much as I do!
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Kisses,
Renske
xoxo